It’s been a long time and I feel guilty about that. I love writing and my favorite topic is hearing loss and I get to do that all the time for work now. I was working part-time as a hard of hearing assistant, my boss decided to retire late last fall in December. When her job went up in December I applied and waited. I had to interview and I had to wait. Right before she left in late December, they came in and offered me a job. I collapsed on the desk when they told me because one of my weaknesses is not being fluent enough in sign language, but I had the rest of it down! I started full-time with benefitst the second week in January.
Working 40 hours a week took some getting used to and sitting in front of the computer all day made me not want to look at a computer in the evening which is why it’s taken me so long to write. I have a lot to say and I hardly know where to begin. I feel lucky feels like a good place to start. I have a lot of support from certain staff and I’m happy to go to work each day, none of that daily grind feel because I love my job.
I started this blog when I didn’t feel so lucky; I felt a little angry and depressed about not being able to hear. However, all that ‘bad’ was actually the beginning of this journey, where I am today. I look back at when I started going to the Sanderson Center to Deaf and Hard of Hearing in 2009. I was learning to cope again after a big drop in hearing. I felt lost and hardly knew where to begin. I was certainly depresse because I couldn’t cope as a hairdresser anymore hearing wise. I could probably do it now if I had to but that’s not my path anymore…but it was devasting to me back then. In 2009 I was shy, kept to myself and very unsure of my place in the world. Who knew that woman become the next hard of hearing specialist? I find it incredible at time, like I should pinch myself.
2009 was the lowest point in my hard of hearing life but that’s where I also learned the most. I attened local HLAA meetings and I re-joined SWC. I started small by being there only, finding mentors and slowly building my confidence back up. Re-learning how to get along better in the hearing world. I volunteered and I kept moving up in my volunteering in repsonsibillity and was even the SWC president last year. I learned thing in the SWC convention committee, how manage issues on email lists. At the Sanderson Center I took sign Living with Hearing Loss and Speechreading classes. I took on more repsonsibility in my HLAA chapter, being president and treasurer over the years. I was getting support in the beginning and learning to give support later on.
For four years I grew slowly and in 2013 I applied for that part time job at the Sanderson as a hard of hearing assistant. I started teaching the classes that taught me and in the process I started letting go of doing hair. Not doing hair wasn’t the end of the world after all, it was the beginning of my life now, it’s so hard to feel resentful for losing that anymore. Or feeling resentful toward hearing loss at all. This is my place, it’s where I belong. It’s where I can now help others struggling like was 9 years ago and I can’t imagine being anywhere else.
There’s a lot of credit to give for people who helped get me here.
My SWC friend who turned into my best friend, Michele. She’s taught me it’s possible to lose all hearing and still get a long just fine in the world. Not that we don’t have struggles anymore but we now know how to take care of them and move on. She continues to inspire me.
My local HLAA friend and mentor Kathy, always patient and willing to guide people along. She gave me hope from the very first time I met her in 2009, so competent in her hearing loss and so good with people. I wanted to be just like her…then realized I had to be me. Kathy is special and there’s no way I can be ‘like’ her but I still try to take lessons from her. All these years later, I still rely on her.
Robin, my boss who retired and who’s job I got. When I became her assistant, she often gave me my head and pulled me back when needed. Edie, my co-worker, also often encouraged me. She remembers when I first came to the center, how quiet I was and how much I kept to myself. We worked on a lot of projects together, Robin, Edie and me made a great team and it taught me teamwork makes the best work.
I also credit my volunteer work for getting me this job. I learned how to create events thanks to working on the convention committee for SWC. I also learned how to tactfully resolve issues by being the list representative for SWC. My local HLAA chapter kept me involved with the Sanderson, people got used to seeing me, I became a regular and they had to hire me as an assistant (I often joke about that). Volunteering is an assett and it meant a lot on my resume, I gained experience in the volunteer world that I might not have otherwise. I highly recommend it.
Being the hard of hearing specialist for northern Utah means I get to help more people with hearing loss, I get to know more of my tribe. I hope I can shed some light on hearing loss for others in time of need. My job is rewarding in that I get to help hard of hearing people in a fuller capacity, help them like I was helped 9 years ago.
* Side note: Excuse my spelling and grammar errors. My nearly 8 yr old computer is giving me hell and I dread starting that thing up so I’m sitting here on my tablet and can’t find the spellcheck option. Hopefully soon I can buy myself a new computer. I’ll fix this post up next time I’m on a computer.